This day has been a mess! I woke up, nearly started to cry because I could not swollow. It hurts SO bad and I can not even stand up quickly now in the evenings, I have to walk so slowly.

I think it is tonsillities, so I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. Hopefully I can get some medications. I don't have anymore energy for this now. Hopefully i better tomorrow! See you!

Looong day.. I'm still sick. Waitng for ''Hollywood wifes'' to end and then I'm going to bed. The other night I slept with 3 sheets, and was dreaming about climbing.. HAVE A GUESS if it was hard to climb with 3 heavy sheets!! :P

Good night!

It is a bad picture, but here she is :)

Yesterday, was my sister and I in the climbing-centre.. She LOVED it! I took some pictures of her as well and you'll see them later on. In the evening, Matilda came here and slept over.

I started to feel sick yesterday, hard to swollow, in my neck and my ears was bothering me as well.

Today, I woke up this morning. First time was at 05:53 and the second time was 07:14... ONE minute before my alarm was suppose to ring. I turned them of and fall asleep. Woke up 07:31 again.. But still plenty of time left. I said to Barry (my boss) that i would come till the racetrack around 10, which means that i have to leave my place around 9. I had a hot shower to warm up ligaments and my muscles in my neck, because I was sooo stiff.. I've been working the whole day and came home 30 minutes ago, checked my temprature because I felt very worm... 38.3°c did my thermometer showed me.. :/ So it was not so strange that i felt warm on the train. I use to have between 35.7-36.2. That's my usual temprature.. So now it fells like i sould die ;) Haha!

My throw is swollen, my jaws are aching, ears and neck.. I think that i will be home tomorrow.. Relax my self a bit and have a long sleep, if it works!

See you later with the pictures! :D

I've actually a LOT of things to write about, but I'm not gonna write about anything stupid, even if i know that it is very funny to read about peoples problems.

I'm gonna write about what i actually LOVE instead! Little Miss Wixen and Matilda ;)

We were in Gottröra yesterday and rode Wixen! Matilda rode her and i took a walk beside her. Actually, it was not sooooo necessery, because she act as an old horse. She is very mellow, I mean to be 2,5 year. Lovable! :)

And here are two pictures :)

Hi! It happens a bit in my life right now. I have no idea were i shall stand and everything seems so failiar to other situations I've experienced. :/ I'm gonna tell you more about it, have to get ready for school now...

Laugh, laugh, laugh! :D Crazy day! :P Hopefully i can shoot some pictures soon so you can see a bit from my WONDERFULL life ;)

First day in school today, after 7 weeks. 5 weeks of working-experience and 2 week of vacation. The feeling is dead, I'm so tired of everything, to don't know anything, about something i don't even know nothing about. It's werid, and hard to pick.. Well, it's getting deep now. C ya!

Oh yes! Big day and I'm very happy over myself.

I ran 6 kilometers in 36:59.

Dad: 38:37.

Ingvald (my dads wifes dad): 43:18.

I was better then my dad and that was my goal as well.

After 1,5 kilometers i saw that he was 40 meters before me.. My tought was ''WTF!? How, when, where did he pass me!?'' 2 minutes later did I pass him and I didn't ever saw him after that. SO SKILLED! I had a good tempo and on the finishing stretch I gave everything I had left. The first thing i saw when I stoped was coffee.. YUK!

I stood there, felt like I was going do faint.. But came back on track quite quick after. Had one banana and water. Wonderful!

I am totally exhausted now, my eyes are tired and my head feels heavy! I think it's time to go home and leave dad for now. See you!

Water Run today with dad. Wonderful!! :)

Ann gonna stay home, because my siblings are sick :(

Well, we have good weather, no pain in my legs, and I am kind of nervous.. So this will be perfect! ;)

DO NEVER EVER TREAT ME LIKE THIS EVER, EVER AGAIN!

HOPE THAT YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND!

Do you really think that i don't understand what a'hell you are doing to me?

You have SO much to prove to me now, DO you understand?

Oh, my god! I have no idea if i shall laugh or cry!

No idea,

NO idea.

No, i don't think that you know what you're doing to me and my feelings,

I'm so tired of to be your second hand.

Change yourself now, if not, FUCK YOU!

My daily outfit!

On my way home to my dad now..

Water Run tomorrow! :)

Home now after a very good evening in the climbing-centre. Now - DINNER! Bacon-sandwiches! :) YUMMI! Here are the pictures :)

I'm on the bus now, hoping to come home soon, even if I know that it will take at least 1,5 hours.

It's good to sit as i do, in the midle of the bus.. That means - I have no idea where the bus are -. How good isn't that? It feels like it going faster and the time is running away! :) Very good indeed. I'm going home now, gonna laundry my jacket, it's very dirty! And then pack my climbing-stuff and the go to Sundbyberg and meet up a friend of mine and then to Telefonplan for climbing and Julia is hopefully gonna be there as well! :)

Hm, wonder if i should go and say hi to Linn.. She's working in Täby. Yes, probably! :D

Bad news are that Spirit, my horse is totally lame on her right backleg. I have no idea what it is or how, but she's cantering on 3 legs... Not so good :( Hope she's getting better soon!

Good news are that Wixen is doing very well! She's very glad to work and learn new things.. Sems like anyway!

My schedule for next week is coming up later on!

This weekend anyway looks like this;

Today: Climbing

Tomorrow: Matilda and I are going to Myrsjö, we're gonna work there this summer, so just for visiting. In the evening am I going home to my dad, gonna sleep there.

Sunday: Water-run!

This is something you have to count with if you wanna start climbing.

The Idol audition 2009. Summer. Work, work fashion baby. The best pose.

Lovely but busy day.

Do not feel for blog'n tonight,

so i will upload some pictures instead :)

One year now since you left us.

I love you so much,

and it is hard to believe that you are gone.

Even if it is one year since I saw you.

I hope that the haven is a place on earth,

and IF it is in that way,

I have seen your signs.

Promise me to keep that work up,

but do not scare the shit out of me,

just a little bit,

because that is the way I know you.

I miss you every single day,

but, ''what you can not get, is what you allways want'',

Is it not true?

I will play our song all night long now,

I love you!

See you in heaven..

M'm'm!! :)

I just.. Love it. And i got my licence now as well :)

The outfit for today! :)

I'm going to town now for lunch now with my mother, and then climbing with Julia :) Funny funny!

See you later ;)

Just 1,5 hour left till we'll see each other now!

It has been a while, but now do we HAVE to hang out a bit more :)

It's gonna be so fun to do everything with Wixen :) Love you Matilda! :)

I'm going to the coutryside today with Matilda! :) It's gonna be really funny! I'm going for a cup of tea with Bert before that, gonna me nice as well! Havn't met him since I was 4 year. I sew my springjacket yesterday, I'm gonna give ju a before and after picture later on, it became a really nice jacket! See you later on with the pictures :)

Tired, but oh, so happy!

I was babysitter, yesterday and slept in my mothers flat. Woke up this morning, around 10, had breakfast and then went back to bed. Fell asleep and woke up by my phone ringing at 1:00pm. My god! So I went home, picked up my climbing stuff and the went til the climbing-centre! :) Soo fun! I climbed more advanced walls, and felt very strong, but I'm gonna be SOO stiff in my arms tomorrow. Tomorrow are Matilda and I gonna start break in Wixen, my 2 year old filly :). Gonna be good! I will try to take some good pictures ;). See you!

AAAAAAND we're on the train now! Woohoo! :)

Woke up 5am, couldn't fall asleep again, probably nervous. We had a wonderful last night, just let you know again ;).

It was hard to leave the hostel this morning, I mean, it has been as my home under this 5 weeks. And when we tropped the key in the box right outside, it maked me feel a bit... Empty. Sounds weird, I know.. I think so anyway.

We are very hot chiks today btw. High-hells, leggings, skirt and my new t-shirt. I promise that I will be better with the camera from now. I forgot my ''good'' lens at home (Stockholm) and brought the broken one.. GOOD ALEX! Haha, not!

The taxi picked us up this morning at 9am as we had booked.. Sooo good! I asked him for help with carry the bags till the car, and when he saw the bags, I could read his mind - it was like ''WITCH one shall i start with'' or ''OMG! What have you brought'' or ''How long have you been here''. HAha!

When we came to the station, ha said: 125 kr. I gave him 200, because it was the only cash i had.

- I don't know if I have change, he said

- Ok, so we get it for 100? :)

- Yes, have a nice trip home! :)

BOOOOTSHA! :D Then we had a big cup of coffee each, from Espresso house! I had an Coffee Latte Macciato and Sandra had an Chai Latte :) And now, half way soon :) SOOOO GOOD! I just wanna dance! :)

See you!

Hi blog! Mm!

Tomorrow are we going home, Mm!

Aaaaand im sitting here in our room for the last evening, Mm, with a facemask on.. It's really good, Mm!

Haha, serious. We had a really good evening.. Came home after a really good morning in the stable. We finished at 12, went til the shoestore, bought ourselves (me and Sandra) high-heel-shoes, REALLY nice ones. They are looking the same, but i mean, WHATEVER! :D

I bought myself more things like;

- Nail polish - pink/apricot,

- An ''eyelash bend'',

- A cardigan and a big t-shirt,

- A facemask.

Very happy with today! :)

Tomorrow are we going home as i told you! Hope you'll enjoy the weekend! :) Cya!

1 day left! :)

We worked our last full-day today! We're gonna work 3 hours tomorrow, in the morning. That will fit perfect! :)

I started to pack all my stuff yesterday, nearly done. Well.. Except shoes, working-clothes, training-clothes, and... hygiene stuff.. I've plenty of place left in my bags, and I'll pray to god that I can fit everything in does bags. They are quite small... Well I brought everything here, so I'm sure that I can get it home as well, but it's gonna be hard because we got a fleece-jacket when we were functionaries, and i have absolutely NO idea how to get that one in the bags.. Well, that's a problem for tomorrow evening.. THE EVENING BEFORE WE'RE GOING HOME!!! WOHOO!

Hmm.. 5 days left until we're going home :) AAAAaarrrriiiivvaaa!!

We did just came home from our LAST food-shopping :) The feeling is wonderful!

Now: A walk.

Later: Cooking lunch for tomorrow.

After later: Sleep!

Hello!

Sorry for not being here.

4 days just ran away, AND we (Sandra and I) have been in Lund, visit our friends from yesterday til today. Soo fun AND it's just 6 days until we leave this terrible place! :)

Btw, I've killed 2 hours this evening with a walk.. I nearly paniced when i saw that my stepcounter stood on ''2355-steps''.. I went like ''OH MY GOOOOOOD!!! I HAVE TO TAKE A WALK NOW'' 8:00pm.. I mean.. Come on! Get real Alex! I am totaly addicted of this fucking stepcouter!! :P

Work tomorrow from 7am to 10am, very nice, indeed! :)

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